Some people ask me, and occasionally I also ask myself whether what I’m writing in this blog is too private. If it could be a mistake. If it is the better option to pay someone who has an obligation of professinal secrecy to listen to this.
But even if blogging is not a substitute for therapy I am convinced that everything that makes me feel better is a good thing. Furthermore, I want to minimize the differences we all make between physical and mental illnesses. If my arm was broken I wouldn’t carry that around with me for years, I wouldn’t remain silent about how it happened and just hush it up. What I would do is: Get help, talk about the accident, exercise to get fit again and, above all – I wouldn’t be ashamed.
As openly as I would talk about an accident that caused my arm to break, I want to talk about incidents that left my personality shattered.
That leaves the question if all this is too much for the people who read it. When it’s about strangers I can only say that we all should read – and consume media in general – in a responsible way.
And when it’s about people who know me, my therapist said something very helpful: For me as the one who goes through it, it is in any case tougher than it could be for somebody else to hear about it. It took a long time for me to realize that I don’t need to protect others from things that are happening to me.
Conclusion: No, this is not too private – rather, it is said that it’s not natural to talk about such topics.