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Hello world,

my name is Nina, I was born in 1992 and diagnosed with a Borderline Personality Disorder in 2014. To make things more interesting, a Panic disorder accompanies it in my case. I recently decided to share my experiences with my “loose screw”, as I call this condition affectionately, in this blog. There are two main reasons for that:

  • I am a talkative person but when it comes to speaking about my condition, I lose my words. So this blog is a chance for me to get it out and share it with people who are concerned about me…or haven’t taken me seriously because they just knew too little.
  • Secondly, I have the impression, that many pages that can be found on the topic of BPD are either a huge psychiatric discourse or pages by individuals who load up triggering pictures, dark and sad poems and make you think about suicide even if that thought has never entered your head before. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to judge other peoples’ homepages, I just want to show that borderliners are people, just like you and me (erm well, you know what I mean). Yes, BPD can be like a horrible nightmare that consumes every last beautiful thing in your life…but there are also happy moments, borderliners are not just manipulative monsters who destroy every good relationship, but people who are able to love deeply and can be incredibly creative.

Conclusion time: Living with BPD certainly is a strenuous full-time-job, but it is possible! There is this popular assumption that most female borderliners can be found in psychiatric wards and the male ones in prison and that might be true for some – but the huge majority of borderliners is struggling to have productive, happy lives every day. Things can go wrong, but they don’t have to – I want all the people who don’t take BPD seriously to realise that it exists and all the people who think that borderliners are hopeless cases to reconsider.

My texts are going to be cynical, informative, sad, funny, black-humoured, enthusiastic or severely depressed, just like me. I know that I will have to write about difficult and divisive topics and that I might say some unpopular things here, but this is my playground and nobody has to read this. For anyone who would like to comment – you are very welcome to do so, but please do it in a non-offensive way: Any racist, homophobe ore otherwise insulting comments will be deleted!

I hope that you will enjoy this blog and whoever you are, I am happy that you read this πŸ™‚

Let the crazyness begin…

One more thing: I am going to talk about topics such as thoughts of suicide and self-harm, including cutting. I expect everyone to read my texts self-regulatory, so if you are triggered by those things, please stop reading! I am not going to warn you at the start of every text.


27 thoughts on “About this blog

  1. So nice to meet you Nina! πŸ™‚ I’m glad you have found writing as an outlet for your BPD. BPD is widely misunderstood. When I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, there was talk about whether or not I was borderline…although I do not have all the requirements for the official title, I was told I have borderline tendencies that go along with my Bipolar disorder…lol not confusing at alllll. Like you, I have turned to writing to help me process all of this fun stuff we call mental illness and I agree 100% that there is more to us than the label, stigma and negativity people and the media so love to exploit. I am glad we crossed paths and I look forward to hanging out at your “playground” πŸ™‚ Cheers! xo

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    1. Thank you so much, your comment made my day! I am not really an internet-person so I was quite insecure in the beginning but such positive feedback…awesome πŸ™‚
      I can imagine how confusing that must be – but you sound so positive it’s really inspiring. Looking forward to read your texts and feeling honoured that you are reading mine.
      Have a great weekend

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  2. It’s my pleasure! πŸ™‚ I am happy to be here and I understand shying away from the internet…lots of “trolls” and sad, sad people out there BUT that doesn’t mean people like you or I should have to hide. If I sound positive, good! lol that was the look I was going for πŸ˜‰ despite mental illness…which don’t get me wrong, I still have my moments that’s for sure…but when I’m writing I feel like I get to channel the “real me”….still figuring out who that is but writing has been helping me figure it out along with some really cool people I have met alone the way…and now I have crossed paths with you! So this just adds to the awesomeness lol πŸ˜‰ Cheers! xo


    1. Yeah, you’re right πŸ™‚ And I also see what you mean, writing is so helpful when it comes to understand all that chaos and people who get what I mean are defenitely a very comforting and nice thing I didn’t really expect. Shared crazyness is just more fun I guess^^

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      1. Hi Nina,
        This exchange of comments got my attention – I think I discovered you from Cavelle’s recent “Share your post” posting:
        I am a new blogger, dealing with mental health issues in my family. I have become interested in exploring blogging for health, and the experiences of other new bloggers like you, are really helpful. If you’re interested, check out my lastest post and join the discussion…


      2. Hey,
        Thanks for checking this out – I will definitely read your blog, it’s so exciting for me when someone like you just comes up to me and invites me to read, so thank you and all the best for your blog πŸ™‚


  3. Hello! I just want to let you know that I have nominated you for the Liebster Award. If you have been nominated before, or don’t want to take part, that is absolutely fine. If you do, the details of what to do are on my ‘Liebster Award’ post.
    Amelia x


  4. A really, really nice blog with a good choice of words and clear insights! I’ll refer to you on my own blog. It’s a pleasure reading your posts!


    1. Wow, you just made my day, thank you so much. It is so rewarding to know that somebody gets what I write here – I am really grateful for this nice feedback!


      1. You write down your feelings clearly and it is all perfectly recognisable and so well written. Just down to earth as it is. I mentioned your blog in my list of other inspiring blogs because that’s what it is. An inspiration πŸ™‚


  5. Thanks for sharing your experiences with BPD.

    I also have been diagnosed with BPD. It’s great to see people talking about it. I don’t know anyone else with BPD besides those online, so I hope we can connect and learn from one another.

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    1. Thank you very much for your encouraging words…I’ve hesitated for a long time before sharing any of this online as I am fortunate enough (that sound mean but you know what I wanna say) to know some people with BPD and can talk to them in real life…also I was scared I might receive negative reactions but thus far…there were none, I’m so glad!
      And I wish you all the best – don’t hesitate to contact me πŸ™‚

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  6. Just discovered your blog and wanted to say nice to meet you!
    I also struggle with (and blog about) living daily life with BPD, depression, and anxiety. Like you said, not everything is bad (though I’m currently in a rough patch, so I’ve had a few more depressing posts) and it’s important for people to know that, but anyway I just wanted to say I like your blog and can’t wait to look through it more! πŸ™‚ -Blooming Lily

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    1. Hi Lily,
      thanks for your nice comment – nice to meet you too, hope you’re as fine as possible and definitely will check out your blog soon πŸ™‚
      Have a good night!

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    1. Hi Judi,
      ich fΓΌhle mich natΓΌrlich sehr geehrt, dass du mich nominiert hast und mΓΆchte mich auf jeden Fall herzlich bedanken πŸ™‚
      Allerdings habe ich vor einiger Zeit entschieden, beim Liebster Award u.Γ€. nicht mehr mitzumachen, da es meinen Blog ja auf Deutsch und Englisch gibt und das mit den Nominierungen immer sehr verwirrend wird (ich lese auch andere Blogs in beiden Sprachen und egal, wen ich nominiere, irgendwer versteht dann nichts…). Ich hoffe, ich beleidige dich damit nicht und sag trotzdem nochmals herzlich danke!

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      1. Woohoo! Me too πŸ™‚ My vlog for Mind (a UK charity) went public today on Facebook, Twitter and YouTube, yay! You can see me on that if you wanna take a look πŸ™‚ I’m on the front page, my story of recovery πŸ™‚

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