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my name is Nina, I was born in 1992 and diagnosed with a Borderline Personality Disorder in 2014. To make things more interesting, a Panic disorder accompanies it in my case. I recently decided to share my experiences with my “loose screw”, as I call this condition affectionately, in this blog. There are two main reasons for that:
- I am a talkative person but when it comes to speaking about my condition, I lose my words. So this blog is a chance for me to get it out and share it with people who are concerned about me…or haven’t taken me seriously because they just knew too little.
- Secondly, I have the impression, that many pages that can be found on the topic of BPD are either a huge psychiatric discourse or pages by individuals who load up triggering pictures, dark and sad poems and make you think about suicide even if that thought has never entered your head before. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to judge other peoples’ homepages, I just want to show that borderliners are people, just like you and me (erm well, you know what I mean). Yes, BPD can be like a horrible nightmare that consumes every last beautiful thing in your life…but there are also happy moments, borderliners are not just manipulative monsters who destroy every good relationship, but people who are able to love deeply and can be incredibly creative.
Conclusion time: Living with BPD certainly is a strenuous full-time-job, but it is possible! There is this popular assumption that most female borderliners can be found in psychiatric wards and the male ones in prison and that might be true for some – but the huge majority of borderliners is struggling to have productive, happy lives every day. Things can go wrong, but they don’t have to – I want all the people who don’t take BPD seriously to realise that it exists and all the people who think that borderliners are hopeless cases to reconsider.
My texts are going to be cynical, informative, sad, funny, black-humoured, enthusiastic or severely depressed, just like me. I know that I will have to write about difficult and divisive topics and that I might say some unpopular things here, but this is my playground and nobody has to read this. For anyone who would like to comment – you are very welcome to do so, but please do it in a non-offensive way: Any racist, homophobe ore otherwise insulting comments will be deleted!
I hope that you will enjoy this blog and whoever you are, I am happy that you read this 🙂
Let the crazyness begin…
One more thing: I am going to talk about topics such as thoughts of suicide and self-harm, including cutting. I expect everyone to read my texts self-regulatory, so if you are triggered by those things, please stop reading! I am not going to warn you at the start of every text.